Drowning Without A Drain
The stinging tears,
all those fears,
He left my heart
With such a start,
It killed me,
Like a saw to a tiny tree
Maybe one day,
We'll all be okay.
But till that day comes,
I will be taking Tums,
For the pain,
Drowning without a drain.
This Is My Life
Constantly being expected to be dealing,
When all it really does is send me reeling.
Everyone has a bottle on the inside,
And no matter how hard I have tried,
I just can't throw things away,
So I am not going to obey.
No one can tell me how to live my life,
Not even if I was going to be your wife.
As I sit here and write,
I think of the fright,
If he discovered my feelings,
If it would send him reeling,
Into this mode,
Without any code,
I wonder if he would become over-joyed
Or just Listen to Pink Floyd?
The fright takes control of my body,
I can’t stop saying Oh My Gody.
If this is how it is Fine
I am just going to go dine!
Gripping me like a vice,
Feeling as though you're a snake wrapping yourself all around me.
Water rushing past us,
But it's like we are in a bubble,
Completely cut off from everyone and everything.
The ice cold water not even touching our bodies,
As if the feelings we have are a shield blocking out everything that would ruin this.
But what we had was not like a fairytale,
It was a train wreck that was never foreseen.
Sick Of It
These romantic songs,
Feels like I am wearing a thong,
I don’t feel so strong,
With all the talk about emotions,
All I see are these motions,
All this love,
Well put it at your ass entrance and shove,
I am sick of it,
This is all a piece of shat,
I need to grow up,
And you need to shut the heck up!
Go find someone else who cares,
I can even pay you the fair,
For the taxi to get you the heck out of here,
I am sick of the tears.
Feeling of love lost,
Not knowing losing it was such a cost.
No feeling roams this body,
Not even a flicker of love.
Empty and alone,
Is all that is known.
Wondering what happened to make it so,
Sleepless and restless nights with thoughts,
Of what could have been.
And with the heart wide open,
Nothing crawls in to replace what is lost.
Wandering around this lonely world,
Hoping, maybe, something will happen.
Till then the heart cries,
But never dies.
Heartless, Souless Jerk
The first initial blow hurt,
Then you told it was all false.
You tore my heart out and stomoed it under your feet.
Why put me through this,
When you told me you cared for me?
So now I am convinced that you are heartless,
Maybe even souless.
You took a knife and tore it through my heart,
Without even thinking about it.
You played me like you play your guitar,
But that is over.
Everything is done with us.
I have moved on from this crap you put me through.
I suggest you do the same.
Surrendering To Your Love
Floating on endless clouds
Never really knowing when I am coming down
Even when I am surrounded with crowds
They couldn't even make me frown
Until you came around, and broke my main function
You sent me reeling from the purest place,
Your charm and unction,
Now I am floating in deep outer space
Never truly knowing when I am going to come back.
I'm not even in an orbit,
Not following any particular track,
Feeling like I'm a sorbate.
So when I finally find something to absorb me for me,
I will be taking a knee.
Was I Ever?
All I wanted was for a chance to show you exactly how I feel about you,
But all you did was turn me away, like a fool.
I don't see how you could push me so far away when all I did was fight for you,
I knew you better than anyone, everything you wanted, everything you needed to hear.
I was there by your side in the worst times, and I was there even when I wasn't by your side.
Yeah I may tease you and pick on you a lot,
But that is me showing you I care in a way that isn't obvious.
I know you are convinced you don't have feelings,
But what was that night in the water and the car ride home?
You couldn't stop and neither could I.
You may be scared of it, or you may not feel it anymore,
I have to know though,
Was I ever the one you wished for at night?