When Hope Comes Around
Dreams are like a farmer who throws seeds into the wind on a dark gloomy day.
Results don't happen, and weeks turn into months, but then one day...he looks down at the green little buds, and that is when he realizes that hope still comes around.
Loose My Mind
Oh, it's so sad, and oh it's depressing me. I can't stop remembering as you began to kiss my cares away. Simply step in and out my life, and leave me in all of my strife.
Everywhere we go we made a memory, but now I hate that you're lost in my memories.
So now I'll do my best to loose my mind.
Check me out as I’m dangling from the string of life.
I’m still young and of course I’ve got it all figured out.
We all want a lover, but we don’t want the wife.
We are all swimming after things to catch.
Not knowing who we are or what we are doing.
We are simply like dogs playing robotic fetch.
Can you see through these murky waters, do you know your fate?
Because I’m blind as I helplessly wiggle and squirm.
For I’m no fish, only fish bait.
Little mice running all around looking for a bite to eat.
Claw each other, hiss angrily, beg with squeaks, and listen to your small fading heartbeat.
Blind, blind, silly little mice. Smell the food, it's plentiful in the distance, within the real world.
However, you stayed put as the mouse trap was built, all around you.
Content with the meager meals they threw to you.
Now, watch your families starve. See the laughing venomous head of the snake, as it eats you one by one…until you're all gone.
A Monster Inside
Torn apart inside but the world is blinded by my mask, it's all they see.
Hidden under is a raging monster growing rapidly.
I love the hate, it gives me the power I need, to be everything I want to be.
Her touch goes void, her voice goes mute, nothing can penetrate me anymore.
From one to another, each one just a whore.
I wish life was simple, like a fairy tale. At least I would know a happy ending.
I run through the night, covered in darkness, yet I can't find enough places to hide. I walk through the crowd with a smile on my face. But blood is all I want to taste. Knock, knock on my door, welcome to my home...there is a monster inside.
Pressure building in my head, moving down to my heart and stomach as I crash onto my bed.
I'm panicking feeling like I'm almost dead. The doctors tell me it's in my head and because I haven't gotten fed.
What's going on with me. I let all the pressures get to me. The anxieties all creep up on me.
So let me free fall away from everything, letting go, I need to be free.
I'm a grown man, but I'm cowering on the floor. These dark shadows playing games with my mind.
I'm rushing to the hospital, but they are telling me everything is fine. Pop some pills I think they are called Lorazepam, and my body is already their biggest fan.
Nerves relaxing now, heart is slowing, mind is focusing, I can breathe again.
It's my first big panic attack, didn't know the power these had, hope I can check it before it begins again.
And I've found myself in this comfortable complacency. Never fear what might be, or what could be, nor shall I commit to how it should be. I live my life like a eagle's feather in the wind.
I simply let the force of nature slip stream right through my already delicate broken life. The freedom to wander and be anything I want. You can't tie me down, for what good will one feather do. If I fall upon your nest, I can barely keep you warm, because there is only one of me. I'm enough for the moment, but the moment quickly comes to an end.
The breeze of life lifts me up higher and far away. You look into the sky wondering if I was ever even there. Not a trace can be found of me, yet you still remember how safe and secure you felt in the moment with me. You and I found our security and comfort within my complacency.
How can you do this to me
All these images in my head drive me over the mental edge. How did you do this to me?
I opened up completely and let you in, loved you all the way, and then you pulled away.
Why did you do this to me? I could read your mind, and I felt your soul, but I never saw that demon hiding in the shadow. I walked into the trap with no guard up, and now I can’t get up from your heavy blow.
I can’t find any relief from the bottle, or other women, nothing will take away this pain.
It’s the baggage you’ve left with me. Tell me why did you do this to me?
I wish you would scream at me. I wish you would hit me, but in the end I wish you’d tell me you love me.
Walk away, run from me, and talk about me, but in the end come back to me.
Life doesn’t seem so interesting anymore, and everyone has become a bore. That light has faded once again and I’ve let you have the control over me. So once again I ask how can you do this to me?
Even My Angels Couldn't Save Me
This safe haven has now become my prison. I'm trapped in the destitute you left me in.
I've done everything possible in order to move on, yet it seems I become more connected to the memories of you. How is it I fell into a love so unbreakable that not even seven women could pull me away from you.
My soul is heavy, taking on water, watch me sink below. My hand outstretched for the light, but this sea of darkness is pulling me under. My lungs fill and my mind at last finds its peace. Now I'm living in a numbing bliss. Nothing and no one can reach me and neither can I. The first time in my life I've given up hope, so what then is left, my final destruction?
As I lay in my bed I pray for the angels to take me away. Their golden bodies so beautiful, and peaceful wings shelter me from my own demons. Her face is pasted upon each one. They float above me just inches away. I'm so laden with this grief and broken heart, that even my angels couldn't save me.
Give me a Sign
The whole world has been brought to its knees, and I still have these nervous shakes.
Don’t be fooled you push me too far and I will kill you, no matter what it takes.
Leave me alone, then pull me closer then ever before because I’m insane.
I lost my mind to you two years ago, do something to rid me of this pain.
We burned through the summer so fast. I wish each of those days were years.
No matter how strong I will you back, this emptiness still brings me to tears.
Was all of my love a waste? Because I can’t command it back into my heart.
Help me I scream at anyone passing by, or finish me and completely rip me apart.
I’m barely hanging on, nothing to hope for, no light waiting for me on the distant shore.
Your long brown hair and eyes gave me inspiration you still are the only one I adore.
Now this music is playing in my head, give me a sign, just give me a sign.
Do something, do anything, but give me a sign that shows me you’re still mine!