It got to be so easy that I was actually disappointed.
I have never taken any substance to enhance my performance.
I felt that there were so many people doing it that I would just be like one of the others.
The acne thing was bad. The shoulders, the face, my voice changed. I had a period every other week.
I look at that person and I'm like, That's not Kelli White. That's not who I am, who I started out to be.
I felt that to do this drug, I had to become someone totally different than I was. I had to compromise my integrity, my value system. I knew it was so wrong.
I'm not sure exactly what Victor told Dr. Goldman, but I don't think he fully knew what was going on... I think he was really oblivious. I don't think he knew.
I felt betrayed by him, extremely betrayed. He made me believe that if I followed a certain protocol of supplements and different drugs that I could become number 1 in the world.
You could run harder, longer. If the workout was four 200s really, really fast, they wouldn't seem as hard as before. You could cut the rest down from five minutes to three. That's a big difference.
It sounded good. It was a story that Victor Conte told me to use. I was contacted by Dr. Goldman, and that's how the story came about. And that was my first time ever meeting, or speaking, to Dr. Goldman.