What if... I can't make it to the next level?
What if... I get rejected?
What if... I fail next time around?
What if... that person gives me a sign that he doesn't care anymore?
What if... we aren't friends anymore?
What if... It never happened? ...
When the rain falls,
It; s like me pouring out tears.
I'm filled with pain like the rain;
I'm like a droplet
That can't control where I'm going.
I stand under the rain thinking,
Why does it rain? ...
Giving me all this pain and sorrow
I have on myself that can't be gone.
Nothing to say to you.
Nothing to talk about.
All I can think of is you...
What can I do to stop thinking?
What can I do to stop this feeling?
The only friend in need,
The only friend that I could trust,
But was rejected and now
I'm filled with pain.
I am filled with sorrow.
I feel annoyed,
I feel ignored,
I feel pain and sorrow.
I then feel nothing...
I have now no feeling,
For you or for anything else.
I now want to give up,
But they say for me to keep my strength.
I wish I knew after time,
But I just have to experience it.
My wishes can't be granted
And nothing can ever change that.
My best friend
My best friend I met from the beginning till end
I don't know what to say to you anymore.
Am I that horribly of a friend,
Or am I those floor mats at your door?
A kind friend towards me
Who cherished me like no other,
But now unlikely
I start to clutter.
What to do now...?
Will my best friend talk to me ever,
Or will I just break down.
I am alone
I am cold
I am not free
I am like a bird in a cage
I am like a slave
I haven't really thought about it...
I haven't really been around it
Why you? why did I say that to you?
I feel stupid now and I'm hurt.
I really thought I would forget it
But it keeps coming back.
Will I see you again?
My best friend is now acting like my enemy.
do you really want that?
I am filled with joy and happiness.
I can't stop smiling
because of the person I am with today.
He showed me the light
And filled my eyes with joy.
He gives me hope,
joy, and happiness that shines so bright.
I'm in class day dreaming
about you; I don't know why
but I think I have feelings for you.
I don't know if you will accept,
I don't know if you will
But I know that you will always be my friend,
Always and forever you will be.
Feel Kind Of Dumb
I failed to keep my best friend,
And I failed to keep it safe.
Now I think it all came to an end
With all doubt in faith.
I feel like it's back in the beginning,
When it all began when I was in middle school;
I'm scared now that I will start spinning
I feel stupid and feel like a fool.
For some reason I feel like I made a dumb decision,
A dumb decision in-deed...
I can see myself or vision
That I am in pain and can see my heart bleed.
This unknown figure...
This unknown place...
Where am I at anyways?
This unknown feeling that I have,
This unknown pain inside;
I can't run away from.
Unknown heart, Unknown soul,
All unknown and all gone.
Sadden by all of this and all that's left..
Is me with no feeling...
I'm gone and lost and can't find a way out!
I'm an unknown person,
And an unknown girl who can't be seen.
I'm invisible, I'm a nobody,
I'm an unknown figure to people.
I'm gone forever and ever...right?
I am filled with darkness,
And with no escape to get out of it.
Nothing can change any of that at all!
Nothing can change how I feel
Or what I do, because all I can do is...
Is... to be alone in darkness.
My light faded away miles away,
And it will never come back...ever.
I will never find my way back,
But I will know where I'm going.
I gave it my all and that was that,
I'm done now and their's still no response.
I'm gone now and gone from you,
Nothing will ever make me go back.