I dont think back on my on my mistakes
I dont see why if it's just a waste of time
one day I'll find what i had lost
One day I'll know the reason why
I want you near so i can smile I'll
i want you dead so I'll move on
i want to give what you could not
I want to take what i don't have
I wont fall back the way i was
I wont let go much less give up
Im frustrated cuz i cant tell if it's real
Frustrated because i don't know how you feel.
Im frustrated cuz you didnt call last night.
Frustrated because there is no trust.
Im frustrated cuz i need you night and day
Frustrated because i can't have things my way.
Im frustrated cuz you never want to hold my hand.
Frustrated because im starting to understand.
Im frustrated cuz we cant be together.
Frustrated because i'll remember you for ever.
Perhaps in some point in my muddy past.
I was a shiny bright white star.
So many years lost in my memory.
Afraid they'll ever come out of the why i buried them.
All that cruelty and hurt they gave me that painful night.
Is the reason i became a bright black star.
No matter what i do my light is no good.
Forgive me for my black light is no use.
Tonight i stopped blaming all for my hurting.
Gave in to the idea that black stars are meant to be lonely.
I find myself once again, alone and sitting on my bed
Staring at the cold walls as my soul trys to escape from getting sad
Some nights loneliness gets to me, thats when i shed tear after tear
Is like a wave of sadness came over me, without any warning creeping from behind
so i pretend im not alone and turn the closet light on
Is my pathetic little way to get my crying under control
i know im not the only one that feel the way i do
So even if we feel loneliness we don't have to feel it alone..
Back To The Start
I wish i could see you, to tell you i need you
You dont know how much I've been missing you.
At the start of our journey, everything felt so perfect.
Never thought we would end up apart.
I just can't help but wonder, what could you now be doing.
Do you ever think of me when i think of you.
I wish we could go back to when things were alright.
Baby i want to go back to the start.
So just tell me you love me cuz i know you still want me.
Please wont you take me to the start, at least for tonight.
Theres A Way Out
Have i come to the end in the
journey of life.
i no longer know wich way my path
seems to go on.
could it mean that this is the end of
my forgotten life.
All i see is darkness so i sit and wait
for the end to come.
But as i close my eyes and the only
one in my mind is God.
I hear a sweet voice in my hear
telling me that there is a way out.
So i open my eyes and notice its still
dark all around.
i close my eyes again and let the
sweet voice be my guide.
Ill be walking with my eyes close
until the sun light comes.
For with the light comes my second
chance in life.
One Day I'll Move On
You left without giving me a reason why.
Couldn't you feel my pain every time
That i would cry.
I was a fool for letting you play with me like a
toy. But i was too in love to just let you walk out and go.
But how can it be that you have already moved on. And what in the world do you mean you found a new girl.
I feel it was just yesterday when you would hold me in your arms. You'd tell me how we belonged together and will never be apart.
Now i find myself in the emptiness of feelings forcing my heart to understand that you no longer want to be with me.
So many nights I've cried myself to sleep along with a thumping. Headache. Shamefully wishing it was me the girl that you'll be undressing.
Now i know how it feels to be numb heart and soul but its taking too much of me to simply stay under control
The pain is too much i just brake down and cry. But i cant fight the feeling its killing me inside.
But the day will come when i no longer cry another tear. And sweet words from my mouth you will never again hear
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