Directors are supposed to help the audience. Good directors don't direct actors.
My violent behavior is some sort of aberration, a character defect I'm not particularly proud of.
There is no question you get pumped up by the recognition. Then a self-loathing sets in when you realize you're enjoying it.
There is no question you get pumped up by the recognition. Then a self-loathing sets in when you realise you're enjoying it.
But when it became an international hoopla where careers lived and died on whether or not you did or didn't get an Oscar, then it got out of hand.
I became an actor to escape my own personality. Acting is the most therapeutic thing in the world. I think all the courage that I may lack personally, I have as an actor.
Acting changes the inner spirit. It's fulfilling, but psychologically very costly. You can't steal enough money in a lifetime to make up for the damage. I'm ashamed for the bitterness it created in me, but it exists.
I think you have to be schizoid three different ways to be an actor. You've got to be three different people. You have to be a human being. Then you have to be the character you're playing. And on top of that you've got to be the guy sitting out there in Row 10, watching yourself and judging yourself.