A poem to borderline

Borderline Personality Disorder
You are my biggest enemy and you are a curse.
You drain my energy.
And you take my feelings.
You make me so numb.
Some days I wonder just who I am.

Borderline personality.
I hate you more than you no.
You entered my life
And you turned my world upside down.
My life is like my prison now.

Borderline.
Why do you make me so sad.
You give me mood swings
I flip from one to the next.

Borderline Borderline
You've made my world so lonely

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My Final Goodbye

It is now I know my fate
becuase come tomorrow
It'll be way too late by a far.
I'm sinking in my sorrows.
And tommorrow I shall be dead.

With my bleeding wrists,
There I lay on the floor.
For I'm choosing not to live
Mysad and pathetic life anymore

This is my suicide,
My one final goodbye
You won't have any clue
How I'm about to die

I'm, beaten and broken,
I can't livel ike this anymore
My mindand pain it has spoken
as I slowly die on the floor

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The scars inside will not heal

There is noubt different than being raped
and being pushed down mentaly.
except that the wounds also bleed inside.
The mental scars will not heal.
They do not fade.

There was no difference between being raped
and being run over by a lorry
except that afterwards the sicko asked if you enjoyed it.
As if it were a game.
And still the scars have not healed.

There is no difference of being raped
and going head first through a top floor window.
except that afterwards you are not afraid of hights.
but of half the human population.
And still the scars linger on with the pain.
They do not fade.

Fear of rape is a storm brewing.

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Shes All Alone In The World

In the world I roam all alone.
Im in my own world all alone.
I have no one who gives a shit.
They couldnt give a toss.

This world is not mine.
Just like my life is not mine.
Its some one elses with dark powers.
someone who lives in the towers.

All alone on my own In the world.
Now Im going to die.
I face death all alone.

As she decides to end it.
She goes through death alone.
Takes her life.
She honestly belives no one gives a damn.

Her family find her the next morning.

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The angel in heaven

God today you took away a much loved person.
Who we all loved so much.
Our lives have changed forever.
And this pain we have to bear.

All I ask is that you take good care of him.
And help us to understand.
Why he was called so soon.

I know that he'll be with me every step of the way.
And at times things may get tough
And I wont know what to say.

Thats when I think of you.
Grandad I no myou would of wanted me to be strong.
I try even though it all seems wrong.

As I prepared to say the final good bye.
The tears began to flow.
And the healing process slow.

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Knocked Down Again and Again

This is It the very last time
I can't take this shit life no more
Too much paintoo much agony.
Too many memories thats for sure.
All the problems keep ariving at my shore.
Knocking at the door.

I can never climb back up.
When all I do is keep breaking down.
Too many mental problems.
I wanted help but now its tuff.
Becuase I'm such a bad person.
And it was me that made my life this way.

It's my fault, Its always my fualt.
If only I could see you before I go.
To get my revenge and gourge your eyes out.
Becuase I bluddy well hate you.
I'll huant you every minuite of the day.
Reminding you of what you done.

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When I'm dead and gone

When Im dead and in the grave
Will you still love me or will you hate me?
If I look down on earth will I see you cry?
If I looked above my grave
Will I see you there or the flowers you left?

When the rot becomes my closest friend
Will you be blaming and hationg me?
Im so alone now those days are over.
Of the days when I walked in the storms.

If I were to knock on the door
Would I be wecolmed in and home?
Will I be fogotten or forgiven?
I simply left behind the life where I did not fit.

I decided my own time of departure.
I decided it was my time to leave.
When the moon was full I left
I left the whispers behind and gave my life away.

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Here final hour is nearly here

You may not know it yet.
But intime you will.
Your duaghters final hour is almost here.
She is going to take her life tonight.
Shes swallowed the pills.

But if you know
If you know what shes about to do.
Hurry go find her you may save her.
The pills can be got out her system.
But once shes jumped off that bridge it'll be to late.

Shes Left you a note.
Do something please do something.
If you dont you may live to regret it.
Shes screaming for your help.

Well now shes done it.
Her final hour has come and gone.
No one could save her.

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Shes Ended

Her eyes are swollen and sore.
Her cheeks are red and raw.
Tears pouring out of the lonely girl.
Love was all she asked for.
Love was all she wanted.
But she didnt get it.

She got walked all over.
It seemed that no one cared for what she believed in.
As she lays in her bed, saying a prayer to make the pain go away.
Trying to put the memories in her past.
She's waits to see, how she's going to make it.
As she struggles to get out of bed, thinking of what went wrong.
She has lost all the faith and all the happiness.
She is lost in the waking of her day.

She's done everything to try to make it.
As one night she made her choice,
She swallowd fist fulls of pills.
She just knew she couldnt go on.

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Im an Angel Now

One night as I sat beneath the tree.
I cried to our dear Lord above.
I looked up in to the open sky & hoped he'd answer me.
Lord I'm lost, I've travelled far but still I seem to roam.
Please light the way and lead me back home.

I told him of my burdens.
And of the everlasting sadness in my hart.
That from his lost love I never felt so apart.
Why did you take my Grandad Lord?
I just can not comprehend why.
No longer can I touch his face or hold his hand.
His loving smile has gone.

I'm angry Lord.
I'm missing him like mad.
I am drowning in my griefe and sorrow.
Please help to heal my griefe.
It was then that I head his gentle voice.
And felt his presence near.

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