If I Were to Kill Myself Tonight

If I were to kill myself tonight.
What would you think or do?
Would you hate me?
Or think of my differently maybe.

Would I see you at my graveside.
With the flowers that you leave?
Will I hear yopu cry?

I hope I dont see or hear it.
Becuase this is what I wanted.

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I am nothing but.............

I am nothing but a broken soul.
Where I had a load of shit through out my life.
I want my life back.
I want to controll my life once more.

One day I ll be me again.
Where no one will bring me down.

What a load of rubbish.
I cant fight anything.
I always loose everything

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Some How I Just Knew

Some how I knew.
I knew what you were about to do.
Call it impulse call it instinct.
Call it what you like.
With that twisted smile.
And your unkindly hands.
I simply knew.
Why me what did I ever do?

I all ways knew you were going to do it.
Going to make me play the game.

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Decisions made to hell I go

I've made my decission.
My life I have selfslained.
My decision was made long ago.
Now I can put my plans to action.

Death will soon be mine.
Death is all thine.
I wish to die.

I have the pill ingested in my system.
I have the knife plunged into my flesh.
I will die tonight

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Crying in the Rain

I like to walk in the rain.
For there I can cry.
Its not looked upon as weak.

In the rain I can cry
For within my hart it rains all the time.
Things never go right.
Always go wrong
Turn out for the worst.

In my hart I cry so noone sees
In the rain it dont matter noone can see.

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Fighting a losing battle

I'm fighting a losing battle
Of one Im not to win.
Deprresion depression#
And other lifes troubles.

This battle one day soon
I shall lose
I shall give up the fight

The battle I am losing
I may as well give in
And accept my fate
Now suicide shall take me
Take me out of this world

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I just want to die

I just want to get away
From this mad evil world.
Only I cant
Each time I try
Some one is there to save me.
They wont let me forfill my wish.
Im in emotional pain
And cant live any longer.

Why must people save me?
Is it not clear enough?
Please just let me go.
Its all I want to do

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Queen faliure

I am the Queen of faliure.
At every thing I do I fail.
My life is full of misery.
My hart is sad and depressed.

Why do I fail?
I wanted to be strong.
Instead I cry.

I wanted friends.
Instead I am alone.
All on my own.

Why do I fail?
Why oh why?
I want to be happy.
And care free

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Cursed

I have been cursed.
From the very early start.
Rape and abuse.
Hurt and pain.
Is all I've ever known.

I have been left cursed.
By the seedy thing you did.
Left with flashbacks.
Left with hell.

Unable to trust.
Unable to forget
Cant move on

I am cursed by you.
By what you did to me

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Razor blade

Razor blade razor blade
Sharpe glass shards
Knife blades
And all things sharpe.
These are my only friends

They slice into my flesh
Crimson blood flows.
Blood and sharps
Their my only friends

Razor sharp
To cut my skin
Get the badness out
Leaving trails of blood
Many scars left behind

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