Mixer and the liquer here to wash away the pain.
but it never goes away, its like a permanant stain, and i gotta lot to lose but a goota lot to gain. opportunity approachin ima knock it out the frame.
Went a little crazy when me and my ex split.
i started livin life like I had a death wish.
most you men shady and no im not bein sexist.
cross me once, then ya mind ima mess with,
cross me twice then ya life i be exiten.
You decide but loyalty is somethin you prove in time...
NO happy ending
Im completely convinced,
there is only one way to set you free,
im affraid there is no happy ending,
you shall be the death of me.
'cause im addicted to your pain,
your shiny out surface,
your just so sharp headed,
your cutting edge i embrace,
i no longer feel,
this is my life,
im a cutter,
im addicted to a knife...
I feel lost in my own thoughts.
lost in a world of struggle between good and evil.
lost in my dreams, my soul, even my own damn life.
what kinda life is that?
sure as hell aint the life i want,
but i got.
struggling every day to pull myself out of this deep dark hole...i sit back and watch my life pass me by...hour by hour...day by day.
but im still waitin for that day that i can stand up and say 'yup that WAS me and if i can do YOU sure as hell can to'...
Scars Of Our Past
you say you wana know me,
But do you really?
do you see who i am?
Do you see my scars?
look closer, their carves straight into my arm.
Do you see my pain, the tears, streaming down my face.
you hold me in your arms, tell me you care,
but do you really?
Im covered in their filth from what they've all done to m, no matter how many times i shower the filth wont ever leave, it will never go away. cant you see the scars that my past have left behind.
But thats okay becasue today im choosing to make a stand im leaving my scars and past behind.
Knew it from the start, nah somethin wasnt right, felt somethin different when i looked into your eyes. things change rearrange, wont ever be the same. nope nothin remains in place. here comes a change in pace. A straight face would be a lie. So i seek alternatives to get by. Takin my best shot, just livin my life. when the walls raise, ya'll shout stop but i dont feel that route. so ima stand up and shout cuz im to damn proud to be the type to back down never runnin from a fight. tell me why my instinct always seems to be right. i try to keep an open mind but its tough at imes. when 9 times outa 10 what i predict is right. take a listen if you will i got a story to tell. everybody i gotta deal with the cards iv been dealt. my lifes hard as hell but i will still prevail...
Fires ablaze within my heart,
a smile consealing all my lies,
screaming, begging, calling out,
a final, frantic, desperate shout.
Scarlet tears drip from each vein,
a vehement covet to end this pain,
this silver blade stays by my side,
because all hope inside has died.
im tempted when he calles my name,
a way out, an escape, an end to shame,
to make it feel a lot less real,
a deal with the devil, in blood must i seal.
They'll say i died of suicide,
but no one knows how much they've lied,
it wasnt a rope, a blade, or pills,
that broke my soul, and gave me chills.
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